ok... firstly i am in a very good mood lately... not because of any achievement or whimsical mood of mine but i feel genuinely happy in such a long time... the title says it all... i now comment on a few things i have done over the past few days...

on thursday... the sun was so hot... got baked while playing tennis... crystal came back hahahahahahaha... its been so long since we had her around in medfac... somebody commented i seem to play like i am in wimbledon... my apologies... i am extremely competitive if you don know that by now you should be shot. anyway wimbledon aside i am trying to take a subtle approach to handling people lately... cos it seems that i have been causing lots of tension until the patience levels have been reached and in some cases breached...

To reflect on the things that i have said... sometimes i have not been perceptive enough... when something happens... it usually reflects some deep frustration that explodes in your face... to somebody out there whom i have ignited... please forgive my ignorance of personal affairs... im quite lost in my own world actually... when you grow up with parents who are distant... anyway finally watched last samurai with NEIL and Science... i love the show even if its so pro american... i learnt a lot from the show... cant really put it into words now but i might do so another time when i get a similar inspiration... i usually watch movies for their inherent educational value... they are able to compress minutiae of information in acting and backdrop... oh... i helped out a bit in the medsoc room even though my presence is only a decorative one... haha... enjoyed the conversation w JM at YIH... so casual yet so informative... i might not be an army person but i do enjoy the ocassional military intrigue... which boy does not like his toys?

I have just figured out something that i was always afraid of finding out... i dunno what i dunno... I want a samurai blade... so i can commit harakiri w it or do a kill bill... poetry in motion... bought a lot od stuff to do but i realised that i have no energy to do them all cos i have been driving myself to exhaustion lately... its very tiring when i won't even have an inch of my own free time this weekend... anyway i love being alone on the mrt or on the bus it always provokes the most intense emotions and thoughts that flood my mind...

I had driving lesson today... sigh... rusty skills... what can i say? anyway besides the stupid car... i was unusually hyper today and it contrasted w somebody who'd on a down... to that somebody... i cannot empathise as i have never encountered your situation... sometimes being an only child has its privileges... but i do help my younger cousins w their work from time to time but i can tell you its a good thing that they are highly motivated to study so its more than 90% of the work done... some are smarter than me... i feel stupid... i pity them... i set the benchmark which they have to beat... or equal if they can... hahaha...
don get mad at your sister ok... she is after all kin and kith... treasure the fact that you have a sibling cos i will never have a sibling forever... sigh... no potential kidney donors or bone marrow transplant matches... oops.. sound so mercenery... Ben shi tong gen sheng, xiang jian he tai ji... being happy is bad for blogging... no anger to vent verbally...

youth... what an elusive concept... brick and mortar of the family... hedonistic fun... strong words... not that i haven't been through tornadoes and hurricanes before but it sort of describes my love for fashion... it is insanely creative and inane at times but it mostly distracts one from the sense and sensibilty of maturity... Life never is the case... i may seem that i am preaching from an ivory tower but how many people have actually stepped into an ivory tower to be trapped by its overpowering sense of imprisonment... treasure you freedom all of you out there... freedom from parental pressures... freedom from the excessive demands and wants that i subject myself to in the name of my parents.

Parents never know what parenting is... thats why they are called parents... do not fault them for their faults but love them for what they love... and that is you...



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