ok this is a delayed post... cos i didn't have time to use the computer on monday... busy w some book that is so much more fascinating than medicine... anyway i shall begin by saying that monday was a really interesting day to start the week... got into a huge explosion with my parents and left the house in a huff... lets see who wins this war of stubborness... spent quite an enjoyable day in the company of friends deliberating on the effects of diabetes and life... i simply snapped man... never knew i could reach an even higher state of being... the glory of enlightenment... especially when you gaze forlornly upon those minions and denizens below... went home to get an insulin rush... such a terrific sleep... i only started mugging at 11pm itself and its a farcical self imposed study... i shall add somethings i heard in the morning here...

I KNOW MY BLOG IS SAD BUT THAT IS A REALITY OF LIFE... I DO NOT SEEK TO SURROUND MYSELF W HAPPY THINGS AS IT IS UNREAL.

anyway so much for humour... the stupid SIR went to tease TSO abt love and the love of TSO's life and now i got my cover blown to smithereens... how am i going to maintain my intel network if stupid friends like him manage to evade all detection signs and snipe me before i got a chance to update him on the latest state of affairs btw the both of them... angry... irritated... mad...

THE 3 THINGS THAT I DID THAT I NOW REGRET... as always... I do regret u know don take me for some thick skinned pig... me am human after all... not that i show a very human side in my everyday life... I confessed... I complained... I angered... that is so consoling... sometimes TBO knocks a lot of sense into me... and is good 4 my CVS too... thats y he is still around... i prefer to regard myself as a great way to test your patience and tolerance... this is a quote from somebody saying being my friend is a sure way to learn tolerance and patience fast... i dunno if being my friend had any benefits at all... me idiot so all the geniuses out there don make fun of me idiot by asking me idiot stupid medical questions... idiot dunno how to answer... me am sick of life... life sux... is that not the title of this blog... ravings of an idiot... i am maniac depressive and schizo and suffer from bipolar disorder... me Carzy

I hav always managed to surprise myself all the time w my incomplete lack of understanding of my abilities so i can tell u i don't even know myself... do you actually know me? what a paradox... what a ridicule... i just love whining... it makes a good read right? thats why you are here reading this article... do u think i actually whine or do i do it for effect? Do people want to see me or a show? Life is a stage and i never failed to realise that... thus in order to be a star you must firstly win the attention of the viewers... seducing them...


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