This is really a bad rainy day... both my knees and my ankles hurt... especially the right ankle... sigh... 3 weeks more to the aniversary of my broken leg... april 6th if i remember correctly... i don even remember how i broke it already... and what happened after that... too much pain i guess...

An apology to all the readers who put up with my ludicrous post below... sorry when your leg hurts and you're not doing much studying and your friends around you are going crazy contrary to all expectations of them i will get quite irritated too... i need a break... not from studying but to sort out my own personal life which is getting a little to complicated at the moment

i'm experiencing a backlash of my own anger and frustration at myself... sorry that you all have to put up with this... sometimes life can be much simpler... to all who were offended by the previous post... i apologise... sometimes what i say is not exactly incoherent especially when every 30 seconds or so i get action potentials of pain shooting up my sciatic nerve to my lumbar plexus causing me to feel throbbing pulses and pain in my right ankle... sigh makes me wonder if there was any symbolic significance to the stuff i have been thinking about recently... maybe im feeling inferior again... sigh... if only i didn't know regret. if only i knew how to control my mind at times... cos if i had more determination to do certain things life would have ended up so much happier today... sometimes being an realistic idealist or an idealistic realist takes a heavy toll on my mind as i grapple with too much that i can take


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