I will resume normal sympathetic activity today as i will let fly on this issue that has dominated the scum chatterbox. CRASHERS n dillusionment in medfac

Some profs are generous so let it be... if you think by reserving information for others and not telling them will win you favors in loyalty, yes only from your tutorial group and in so doing alienating the friends that who just ask a simple favor from you and that is to share it with them... so be it... i don care. i can find out all the info i want from other sources who are of course more willing to share... i do not pander up to other people's emotions. if a tutorial group can accept one more person as another person's companion y should this be seen as unfair? im not complaining about crashers cos i crash too but i don see the need to do so all the time. if i tease u about it and you feel irritated that i bring up this embarassing point... ask yourself y you feel embarassed and that it is a matter to be teased at? i don misjudge people without reason... those who know me best can acertain to that... if you wish to persist then go ahead... freedom of choice... and its also your friends' freedom of choice to remain your friend or change their impression of you for better or for worse... i leave you with the freedom of choice

as for disillusionment in medfac... how cool is it to talk about playgrounds. after life is a game that all must play and the stakes are high... i prefer to see it in this way... be it old friends or new friends it doesn't matter cos the words old and new are relative and tentative... i might know some people like classmates for like 8 years and not know a single thing about them and some old friends become new friends when the friendship is torn asunder... are they old friends or new friends? i would say both... to address the issue head on... let's put it in context... if one steps on the toes of others all the time with unresonable demands and inconsiderate behaviour and i need not go into details of this... it doesn't need a new friend to win the hearts and minds of the gang cos resentment is already present... in fact the new friend has nothing to offer... and all you need to do is harness this tide of anger... and of course once it shows it will be ugly and no matter how cosmetic it is made to be the truth is out there... something's terribly wrong. in this case its an intrinsic character flaw... the gang of people are actually very nice people and i believe that a lot of people will agree w me on this thus the fault most probably do not lie w them cos i know the gang well enough... its up to you to decide what do you want to do w your future... Nobody gains from this experience but pain. its a lot better to face up to the truth than to endure it... short pain better than long pain. After all it is your freedom to choose... to accept the painful truth or to go on living in the ivory tower. Is there a freedom of choice in this case? cos both roads lead to pain? you decide

i do not assume that i have many supporters nor do i have many friends... but i know i have friends that i can trust and this i mean good friends and to all my good friends, you know who you are and thank you for your existence. and to quote from plhu... i leave the ranting on the blog not because im scared to confront people w their mistakes or anything... in fact im very willing to do it face to face cos im quite hot-tempered by nature but i know that anger and temper will obstruct any sense from getting through... so let it be posted and read for all... hopefully in a sane mind... that sense will prevail.

i realised that i can be a person's best friend and his worst enemy... it is so humane yet inhumane? what is humanity...
conscious mind: *ponders VERY hard*
subconscious mind hints: **Do you even need ponder such a question? **


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