I read somewhere that somebody likes Judy Garland thus this post.

Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high,
There's a land that I heard of once in a lullaby.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true.

One day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow, bluebirds fly,
Birds fly over the rainbow,
Why, oh why can't I?

Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow, bluebirds fly,
Birds fly over the rainbow,
Why then, oh why can't I?

I take this opportunity to hope that everybody is doing well and fine as almost every other blog i read there seems to be a lot of trouble going on due to relationships and friendships. I guess that after reading somebody's blog i shouldn't have been so harsh then so i apologise. If i may say so, i have been quite silent and foul-tempered lately due to lots of changing winds that are clouding my perceptions and realities of the situations that i'm facing. I don particularly like to make other people angry so if i have intentionally offended you by my honest comments i retract them and apologise. I have been hyper lately and its making me go into a crazy spiral that ascended upwards before crash landing on the day i did 80 laps in the pool. I was torturing myself by those laps, not that its physically exhausting but i was torturing myself with boredom and splashing my head with water makes me able to think more clearly. At snail's pace i crawled thorugh the pool, with each stroke, the question why? keeps reverberating in my head. Is honesty really the best policy? after deliberating on whatever i know, maybe not. So from today onwards, if you want my honest opinions ask me directly, if not i will try my best never to volunteer it again. This has made me terribly disillusioned. If even the most basic tenet of honesty cannot be accepted, then what value is there in the world? I really dunno and don't want to blog this but i will cos it will be my stand on this. I am sorry, but i know that sorry cannot heal past wounds and maybe it will never heal them but i will apologise as i guess only time will heal. Maybe i don't come across as sincere enough but everytime i do, people take it that i'm throwing another sarcastic or cynical comment at them. Can I ask of you all to think of me better, especially people that i have known for so long. I have other things on my mind which are not convenient for me to say but they are the usual domestic issues. Can i be somewhere over the rainbow instead of inflicting this pain on myself? i don't know. I have a SM streak in me i guess. Honestly, i don't know how this honesty is going to come across but trust me, judgements are easy to pass on people, especially when you only interact with them via blogs. Ask any blogger and he or she can tell you that they were misjudged by others just due to blogposts. So if you intend or have judged me from looking at my blog, i beg you to reconsider. I need to go novena church again. at night. alone. and with a sincere prayer.

Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow, bluebirds fly,
Birds fly over the rainbow,
Why then, oh why can't I?


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