A really bad day today. Greece won Euro 2004, had to wake up early to do something important, then rushed downtown to catch spiderman 2 and then felt very sick and then i forgot about an important appointment and i just realised it now. I'm suffering from exhaustion i think. I don't know why but after catching the wimbledon finals and coupled with the little amounts of sleep that im having, im reaching breaking point. especially today after the movie. It left me so drained that i didn't know why i was feeling as such. You could say it touched a chord as the movie's tone was strikingly familiar. It made me so mentally exhausted that i really couldn't even join the scum for a basic gaming session later. the exhaustion compelled me to even miss a singularly most important appointment that i had. Sigh. Really irritated with myself now.

Well on the lighter side of things i sort of contacted a few friends whom i long thought lost and guess what, they are so different now. Its amazing to know what change can do to a person. It is a positive force but it cannot be rushed as sometimes too much of change is quite bad. I hope that they will fare well wherever they are and hopefully someday i will be able to interact with them again. I have been thinking of contacting my old primarty school classmates and etc. but somehow its quite difficult as so many things have went by and all of us has changed. Could still remember the first statement Mr. Ng. said when we met up. quite sad at times to know that everybody has moved on and the memories of the past are no longer as fresh as they were once were. Life is so flippant and casual that sometimes it doesn't really matter how you live. I live to enjoy life itself tho it make not be as self sacrificing and noble as others would prefer it to be. there is never a right way to live life. Life has its ups and downs and i do not profess to know what is the best way to live my life but i tend to prefer escapism at times. Escapism into materialism.

this must be my first serious post in a long long time, i guess i don't really feel like talking all this rubbish cos sometimes it dredges up stuff that you bury inside and you don't want to hear. Sometimes the past is more beautiful, cos when you look back you realise the innocence and beauty of that moment. not the mistakes you make. But i shall now look forward to the future, even though i'm stumblilng onwards on this long and tough road. Been thinking of the good old days recently and coupled with recent events, i really wished i could go back to being who i once was again. But sadly it will never ever be the same again, so why bother to even ponder. Not that i can't proceed on with life but sometimes the going gets tough and it is such a time now. I'm grappling with certain issues that are on my mind and i can't seem to find answers to these questions. Vanitas... Futility of life indeed.

I get lost in your eyes.
And I feel my spirits rise...
And soar like the wind.
Is it love that I am in?


I get weak in a glance.
Isn't that what's called romance?
And now I know...
Cause when I'm lost...I can't let go.


I don't mind not knowing what I'm headed for.
You can take me to the skies.
It's like being lost in heaven.
When I'm lost in your eyes.


I just fell...don't know why.
Something's there we can't deny.
And when I first knew...
Was when I first looked at you.


And if I can't find my way...
If salvation seems worlds away...
oh...I'll be found.
When I am lost in your eyes.


I don't mind not knowing what I'm headed for.
You can take me to the skies.
Oh...it's like being lost in heaven.
When I'm lost in your eyes.


I get weak in a glance.
Isn't this what's called romance?
Oh...I'll be found.
When I am lost in your eyes.



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