I dunno what to say on this post but i will blog anyway. There are too many things so be patient

I think it sounds really silly when i tell the people around me that my other friends are accusing me of Zhong Se Qing You and guess who i am sitting with... The Fairer Sex. What a wicked irony. I have been deserting a certain group of people lately as i am always having lunches with others and not really joining in their activities. Sorry. Will try to make it as often as i can but i have many committments.

I finally got a certain confirmation of a rumour today and i think its particularly brave to do something of that nature. I respect the person more than ever now whatever that person is. Courage and bravery is always appreciated and respected

I have been accused of being mean to somebody lately. I don't think so, im so busy how can i even be mean? Im so nice to not let my temper fly and make the walls stained with blood and guts already. I being MEAN? What sort of nonsense is this. I can't believe it. I am being accused of being something i am not? This is perplexing. But well.. it fits well with my jerk theme

I guess i love my new found life style alot... New refreshing experiences and friends and many other options are now open to me.

I absolutely hate it when i keep on losing my pocket money all the time... Where did it drop again!

There is a change of priorities in my life now and it will make me a lot more distant so pardon my sadness and my silence. I will be quite cold and not as welcoming as before. I guess it has to do a lot with disillusionment. I don't know how anyone would feel but as an analogy one of my best friends just lost his HP and whilst i was talking to him over it i realised that we had no expectation of each other, that's why we are still friends till now. But alas, some people fall into another category and im afraid thats why i'm behaving as such. In some way or another you might have fallen short of expectations and i'm still unable to accept it. H was saying that T treats S like a god. Maybe it was the case for me and you. I admired you and wished that i could learn from you more but now its no longer the same after certain events and C was saying that it now resembles the times of L. I guess C was right in pointing it out, esp the times of L bit.

I think i shall take a more proactive approach to life and i shall not regret whatever i am doing even if it comes at the expense of my studies. I wish i could make my life more meaningful and i think the opportunity has arrived.

Its hard to take rejection and i guess it never was a good feeling. sometimes love cannot be forced no matter how much you care for the other person. Esp if she was the 1st person you ever liked. Its not easy but sometimes things will never be the same again after a rejection. I can't say to have much experience in the subject matter but i guess that it will heal with time. Until now i haven't told some people my feelings... even though they have died a long long time ago... Its better to leave somethings quiet and let them be especially when you know that it will never work out. I can only advise you but only you can assuage the pain in you heart.

Had like a crash course on shopping yesterday. Shocked surprised and can't wait to see the result. I wasn't shopping for myself by the way. It a ZSQY outing. Its so nice to help out... hehe



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