I don't know how to put this in words. I received the results of the medsoc elections but i wasn't pleased. It has nothing to do with anybody in fact. I don't know why but why did everything had to come to something like this? I don't want to reveal more than what i already know but i feel that it is very sad for me to hear stuff like this. Its not maligning me or anything as it has nothing to do with me at all. Its just so bad, so bad. I feel a bit disillusioned by everything that i know so far. Why must everybody be like this?

I would like to thank those who cast a No vote for me in the elections. I appreciate your honesty with regards to my ability and if you are happen to come across this blog, pls feel free to voice ur doubts about my inability to perform as a treasurer. I would appreciate honest criticism, personal or technical.

I have never managed to feel so down of all of a sudden. I don't know why. The day started fine and ok but after certain things that happened, it descended into a downward spiral. I don't want to elaborate but am i that irritating. If so i apologise. I forgot you don't like me doing that calling you over in lab like that. Sorry. I was insensitive a few days ago, after the personal bereavement that you have experienced.

Don't console me. I don't know why i am saying this but let me cut and paste something from another person's blog that perfectly describes what i am feeling now.

I really want it to get better and things to go back the way they were. But you have new friends and you don't tell me things anymore, and things like that. So sometimes I really wonder, if there's any point anymore.

-shrug-

Oh well, guess things always take a turn.

A few things redeemed my day, 1) got asked out by an old friend to dinner on saturday. 2) at seminar room M3, i settle issues with somebody indirectly. 3) Priscilla and Enil asked me to join them for badminton on friday. 4) I visited Novena Church today. The flowers are gorgeous.

I tend to pay more attention to lectures when i am alone in the LT. Its much more conducive than talking to friends and sleeping. I cannot afford to slack in my work anymore with my increasing committments.

Sorry, i might not feel like talking lately. It has nothing personal to do with anybody or any incident. Its just a reflection on the state of affairs.



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