I don't think i know much to say today. Well yes i have been having an infernal time of my own. Not due to anybody in particular. Not even RB can say that he creates an infernal time for me. I created it myself. I have been having so little sleep lately that i think i am a walking zombie. I don't understand why on earth is this affecting me so badly that i keep on getting nightmares from it. I can't seem to stop dreaming of my doom in some stupid form or another. I don't know how to get rid of it. My sleep wake cycles are screwed and i usually end up being awake for 20 hours. And the 4 hours where i sleep is not really sleeping.

Anyway i don't really know what to blog about actually. Life has taken a turn for the boring better. I mean, i don't think my life should be too event filled all the time. Its much better if there are days in which i have a lot of events happening and days where there is absolutely nothing happening. Maybe its just blog apathy.

It seems that when i am most peaceful, everybody around me is erupting into flames. I mean i have been so un-irritated lately. Cos maybe i get kicks from seeing people all around me get mad? I am now on a i-try-my-best-not-to-get-angry-at-people campaign. It is for the better i believe. I do not wish to get angry at other people anymore. It only reduces me to bits and pieces. I think i shall launch my anger more constructively.

I am quite poor lately. Mom hasn't repaid me for a lot of things. Sigh. I am near financial ruin. Very very poor state of financial health. I can barely feed myself, much less repay others as mom isn't paying me back $ that i need. Sigh. And best of all. I don't know where my savings are. Its with her.

Maybe once my pictures are developed i shall relive my memories. Europe was nothing short of fantastic. I miss europe so much. I am suffering from a miss of europe. Stupid springfield catalog. It brings back so many memories about europe and the memorable times i had there. SIGH Cars are such a headache.

anyway, i am getting lazy to go to school. I mean, i wake up in no mood to go to school. That's why you see me wearing so many plain stuff lately. I am bored and sick and tired of matching my clothes. Its getting a little boring. I need more colour to spice my life up. Can't wait to get my hands on something that is on sale and i think it is freaking worth my $. And trust me, i don't spend a lot. Really. I am not lying. I think i spent more on food.

Rambling on... there are many things which i really feel like writing about but due to my lethargy i can't really talk about them now. I am sorry for not entertaining you all today. i will just say this.

I AM A LOUSY FRIEND. chop seat for people and they don't want to sit with me. I think i am a jinx. Celebrate people's birthday and cause trouble for them. Sigh. Maybe i shouldn't try so hard at all.

red earth: I know. I saw the beginning of bourne supremacy and it was like Kowloon???

enil: Ok you are not related to andy wee. hehe. Sorry!



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