In light of recent posts, most of you might be thinking that i am feeling very down. yes i am. I don't know why but its retail nor friends therapy is not working. It certainly didn't help that i couldn't find anything at Bugis to buy today when i visited my 2 favourite shops there. Seiyu didn't have anything and bugis village was as usual a convoluted mess but i managed to find something there except i didn't like its colour combination. It resembles something that i will get soon. At robinsons i tot i hit a strike but it turned out to be a false start instead. I guess i must be more patient. As elpis was advising me, i should get more bottoms. Must listen to the wisdom of the seasoned shopper elpis. I only shop periodically. Taken a fancy to certain A/X stuff. But well... its prices are beyond my league. I mean, its not unique enough to warrant me paying those prices.

I need to say this here. I treat different people differently. Some people could irritate the hell out of me and i won't as much hold it against them. Some people just need to irritate me a bit and i will get mad. I am sorry. I have a pre set patience level for everybody i meet and its not random i tell you. If you happen to fall on the low side, just blame yourself for giving me a very bad impression of yourself such that i can't stand your behaviour. It takes quite a lot to piss me off to that extent. well. i am irritated most of the time but when i am angry i am usually silent. I guess from the few posts you have seen so far you know that i am angry at somebody. And this time im really angry. I have yet to forgive and i refuse to resolve the matter. I rather spend time with friends who exact less stress on my patience levels. And for that matter... there are quite alot of people who fall in this category thankfully. To those who have advised me to let go... i am sorry. This time its different. To accuse me of playing out on something is an accusation i don't take easily to. Since you have already accused me of playing out. I shall play you out then. Autrefois acquit... i have been accused with no room to clear my name, so let's play the game. If you think calling me and talking over it is going to settle issues... im sorry. I don't see the need to settle anything. Cos the issue to settle is with yourself. I can do without your interference into my life.

With reference to another post. Well, those in the know will know. I am in the eye of the storm now... the calm has descended. I feel nothing. Not that it has disappeared but its better now. I can think better. I feel better in fact but it may all be a farce for all you know. After all i have got this comment quite a few times. Its very hard to reconcile the blog persona with real life. Its totally different. I don't know but after talking to a few friends, i guess only time will tell. Its not hard for me to like somebody but to like somebody that long... that's different. Its more than normal, its something i have rarely felt before. i guess the person will always take a special place in my mind and my heart. let's just leave it to fate la

jolin was remarking girls are a handful and troublesome. I don't think so. I don't know a lot of girls but from those whom i know, i don't think they are a handful. In fact all of them are nice just that everybody has their own troubles. its hard to actually listen when you're plagued with your own turmoil as well. But im not fit to comment on such issues am i. I feel like an idiot

Tun Tan was kind enough to dispense a few words of comfort to the poor soul who writes this blog. This poor minion gladly thanks Tun Tan, who took time off his busy National Day schedule to actually read this pathetic lunatic's rantings and ravings about the existence of life. I feel comforted by Tun Tan's words of wisdom. Such is the prescience of the wise.

My old enemy got into melbourne. I am happy for him. I received it in the LT today and i forgot to switch to silent. haha... Got a new HP cover at bugis... Looks kinda cute and kinda me. so many people are exercising lately... scary. med fac can be called fit school. I need to start too... its 1st sept... i put it off for 1 month already... this sucks. Hafta say sorry to zhengjye... no body to speak of dude.



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