Met some old friends today at a surprise gathering. Not that it was totally unexpected but the surprise is more on them than on me. they say that i have changed so much from the past. Well, its true but really is it desirable? I don't know but from the way they say it, it seems that i have become the topic of conversation. Well, i am physically different from the past but is change really that hard to swallow? Am i changing too fast such that i leave some of my closer friends in the lurch and forget totally about them? i was flipping my address book and i realise that quite a few people i know have somehow lost contact with me. Its quite sad actually to see that your close friends are now mere strangers. I don't know but i don't dare call some of them out to talk or eat cos i don't know what to say or ask. I am very bad at small talk and thus this is a frightening proposition. But with ORD nearing, i'd better make good use of the time left to keep up with my friends. Maybe i am having too heavy a life now. Shall try my best to study in school. After all i haven't been studying much. After this weekend, i feel so much better and yeah, i didn't spend any $ at all save a CD. Its so much better now. I need some sleep now... haven't had much sleep at all. I guess it comes with the package of life and fun.


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