I have been fretting over music for playhouse for the past 1 day. Absolutely marvellous. I didn't mug again. Where am i going to be placed for the next CA? Last perhaps? It was a totally screwed up afternoon. Morning was fine except that stupid swede who didn't open his floorball shop... Bah! Playing some comp games later did lessen the mood and certainly made me most productive. In a space of let's say 3 hours, i came up with the whole list of music i needed for playhouse. And they all fit wonderfully.Anyway, today i shall burn them on a CDR if possible.

Anyway life is not getting better. Why? I don't know. I am starting to hate myself more and more. I don't know why. I think my inferiority complex is creeping back into my mind again. I am quite fed up with a lot of things and they have nothing to do with other people. It is all internal. I am too too too perfectionistic. I hate this niggling feeling that plagues me when i am in this indecisive mood. It is almost like somebody is nagging behind your back. There are many things that one cannot speak out for there is no language that can express it.

Thank you and you and you. I would like to extend this thanks to those who have made my life considerably a more fun and sane place to live in. You all have made me strive to improve myself and make myself better. You all have made me feel the need to live and love life once again. My life is never the same again. For the first time in my life, i have found happiness and even though it was shortlived and ethereal, i would like to thank you for the impetus it gave me to improve myself. I am no longer who i was and i thank you all from the bottom of my heart for leading me on this road that even though it was futile, it made me happy.

Anybody wants to go watch the French Film Festival? or The European Union Film Festival?



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