Today the passage was about the samaritan thanking jesus for curing his leprosy and the jews not bothering. How many times have we all not thanked our family, friends and the occasional acquaintances that we have requested favors from. So to all whom i have requested favors from, i thank thee from the bottom of my heart. I don't know how much gratitude i owe you but it is certainly immense and frankly i don't know how to repay you all. Thank you once again.

Today, the clouds cleared and I am once more happier yet at the same time sadder. I don't know how to express it but i think it is for the better that maybe whatever there was will be left as it is. I don't see any future at all and maybe now ignorance is bliss and possibly I have shot myself in the foot. Everytime it pops up unknowingly or maybe playfully, it hurts. I am not depressed. I am not down. I am not deceiving myself. I don't know what i will do next. I already set myself a deadline and i don't know if i shall adhere to it. Maybe i should push it earlier and possibly make my life even sadder. I don't know what should i do. It was inevitable and some what unexplainable. let's just leave it be. Maybe its time that i let go of my jacket and feel the cold. Maybe its time to remove my shoes so that i can feel the nettle. maybe its time where i get hurt. By my own volition.



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