I think today was a day well spent save the wasted trip to HPB. The carolling session with the CMS people were fun, and i am glad that i went for it. Almost didn't wannt go as i wanted to go home to rest instead. I should win an oscar. I was in pain the whole day but i managed to hide it remarkably well. My legs hurt. They still do, even alcohol last night didn't manage to do much but send me to sleep. The pain was still there when i woke up today. I hope a little rest will do the trick. Trying to avoid painkillers.

Is it just me or is this christmas a rather more morose and depressing one. I don't feel the spirit of joy in the air. Instead i feel this somewhat sombre passing of the times. Its Christmas again and the year has passed without much consequence and I have seemingly failed most of my New Year resolutions. I don't see the spark in people's eyes, I don't see the skip in people's steps. It feels like a lot of people need a prescription of joy from this tired world that has worn them out. I think we all need a break.

I don't think I am understanding enough. I don't think I am empathetic enough. I don't think I am fit enough. I don't think I am trustworthy enough. I don't think I am fair enough. I don't think I am good enough.



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