First post of feb. I am in a non-blogging phase, which is very rare since it has lasted for quite a few days. But anyway, life of late has been rather uninteresting.

I guess sometimes you wonder what fate has dealt you in life and you pause to consider that maybe life is just waiting for you to live it. Slowly coming out of the self-imposed shell these few days. I needed some time to be alone and secluded. I just didn't want anymore distractions and opinions. I wanted some peace and quiet.

It is always around this period when life takes another dramatic turn. I feel the wheel of fate slowly but surely cranking up its gears. Feeling like a failure due to the retrospection lately.

I am happy that i am slowly but surely fulfilling my new year resolutions. They do not involve material goods thankfully, there is so much material goods can offer in terms of satiety.

I got a bag of thornton's chocolate from UK today. Thanks so much Ms. Thornton's. Hope you love the bag i got you for your birthday.

First serious long post in a long time. Pardon the rambling

Feeling both happy and sad. Happy and sad over different reasons but nevertheless the taste is bittersweet. Times were hard and times were bad. But now, i can say that life is taking a better turn. Sometimes coming to accept fate is a huge blow to take but we cannot always have everything we want or wish to have. I guess that all of you won't really make sense from whatever i am saying cos this is a public blog. I am not intending to blow up or get frank with everybody on this blog. There is such a thing as a diary. I am not going to shop so much anymore. Something else has taken over as the main interest in my life and in a way i am thankful for its appearance. To receive is a fortune. To give is a greater one. I really am a klutz at expressing how i feel and sometimes i try to express it in the stuff i give people because i am not an outwardly expressive person especially when they mean a lot to me. Maybe this amount of money to be spent is too much. Maybe so. But i don't think i shall regret it. Although i could get a lot more with it, it is the thought that counts. And today, i learnt a lot. Still hovering over a few decisions i have to make. Delaying works but sometimes do you really really want it? I just like beautiful things and sometimes beauty cannot be quantified. If i could choose, my choice would be obvious. Everybody is afraid at times, especially when you dare not risk your all anymore. Once bitten twice shy. Burnt out is also the feeling at times. I think i shall stop rambling here.



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