Long Post coming up regarding certain stuff

But first, Replies are in order.

ying: If your mom is terribly busy, don't trouble her too much please. I am thankful for the favour though. Thanks also for the absolutely wonderful hospitality.

plhu: yup. Cos now i know what i want. Although i must admit, wandering aimlessly is quite fun at times.

anyway, onto serious stuff.

Well, sometimes we all get pissed. But sometimes, we get pissed on different levels. Let's say for example there are many types of anger. Anger meaning anger and not exasperation or irritation but full blown anger. Anger as in the blood will boil and faces will recoil type of anger.

I would say there are AT LEAST 2 forms of anger.

1 is the normal logical anger where logic and common sense doesn't get through and you get mad with ther person but in the end you diss the issue off by ignoring his/her ignorance. You can reason with yourself and find an excuse to excuse the person's misdeed and defuse the tension and rising blood pressure.

2 is the emotional irrational sort of anger. This is the type where despite all common sense and logic being accepted, you cannot let go of it. Cos somehow it strikes a chord and refuses to let go of it. It strings within your heart and it somehow makes you bear a grudge and makes you go totally mad.

Well, I am in a phase where the predominant form of anger at the moment is 2. And not that this is a warning signal or stay away sign. I have already crossed into that stage and it is brought about by some people. Some people who have made me feel extremely aggrieved and have decided to intrude and irritate me despite me warning them that i am not exactly MR. Forgiveness. Well irony of it all, today's reading was about forgiveness. To add further insult to irony, i was leading it. Well. TO ALL READING THIS, I am being quiet and aloof is cos i don't want to inspire sparks or distill volatile phelgms. I shall not cast fire and brimstone from these very page for it is useless as the people who have angered me so terribly do not read this blog. Maybe they do, but i bet they don't read it. And I am writing this from a very very old perspective. It has been sometime and i feel more peaceful writing it down now in a very polite manner that bears no resemblance to the fury that i have spewed forth in the past. (Sorry jm).

I am just venting it here because i feel extremely aggrieved that their actions show a lack of respect. A lack of respect for me and my friends. Also, I dislike people who say different things to different people. Forcing people to take sides over a mutual squabble is one thing. Besides, i don't force my friends to take sides NOW. In the past YES but NOW i feel that quarrels should always remain mutual and do not involve friends unless mediation is absolutely necessary. I also do not like questions flying around like daggers and sticking into people's back. Best of all the things done. NOT TO TAKE A HINT. When i say do not disturb means do not disturb. And i was being courteous by doing the usual diplomatic corps speak. " I would like to mug." ie. LEAVE ME ALONE. And do not presume that i will take your crap with a smile like i do in the past. Take a hint from Desperate Housewives. GOOD EVENING MRS. HUBER.

ok. Rant over. onto more melancholic stuff

Took 163 from toa payoh again. Well, my life used to revolve around bishan, toa payoh and novena. How i missed those places. Times when we would draw lots and have to take the bus number we drew and race to reach our destination a la amazing race. Times when i would burrow myself into toa payoh library or run to the united square macdonalds to get an ice cream or even go to House of JJ in Junction 8 to get my dose of magic cards. Well, the times are now long gone and i feel a little sad wandering in those regions again. Though from the 163 route, the new RJC looks very imposing and nice but the feelings of the building will never be the same again. Just as a special somebody said about V Day.

" I miss V Day back in RJC. It was when i would go to school with a bag of stuff for my friends and come back with a back of stuff from my friends."

I miss RJC. Not the lessons, Not some of the teachers but more importantly for the classmates and the friends i made there. I am not the type of person who will get close to my classmates easily. I usually make better friends out of my classmates once we are no longer in the same class. Thanks for all the memories. Happy Friendship Day everybody. It's a bit sad now that everybody is leaving for their tertiary education. The person who introduced me to soccer and who inadvertently broke my leg has now left for Oz. He was a real deal of a friend. Every willing to help ever happy and smiling. Always optimistic is gone. And also another friend has left for oz too. He who was once my 'sworn' enemy now one of my better friends i must admit. And also somebody will be departing this saturday. Another of the people i used to know back in RI and RJC. It is really sad that everybody is going to go everywhere. And this is just the people who are going Oz. Wait till the UK and USA ones decide to leave our shores. Sigh. So many of my friends will be gone. I have no more friends left.

I have alot more to say but i shall leave it for another day.

P.S. today was pretty surprising. I think I am not bad at second guessing other people's thoughts. It was pretty surprising to hear the sudden confession.

Sorry about the rose on the windscreen wiper. Should have been more personal. But was in a rush. It was uncharacteristic of me to do so. Thanks for your rose.

Got this from plhu's blog. Go figure.

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• 13 is the one that you love.
• 16 is one you like but can't work out.
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• 11 is the one who knows you very well.
• 26 is your lucky star.
• Fly Me to the Moon is the song that matches with 13.
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