Edit: I am so sorry, i haven't checked my tag board in a million years so some replies are in order.

Princess: Hey teresa! it's been a long time since we spoke! Anyway don't worry about that, i understand you have exams and other stuff to look into so whenever you're free just pop over to say hi lor

Nick Xian: Hey, finally your blog is up. So long liao. Anyway why don't you like the prev skin? I tot its better than this one lor. Anyway welcome back to the blogging world. Also must meet up more often! Don't work so hard.

Athena: Hey, stop criticising my skin can. Your skin not much better lor. Give me a huge cardcaptor sakura fright. Now i don't like cardcaptor sakura cos of your skin. Gives me nightmares. You so good design a nice skin for me la. Your new skin the dark one is so gloomy, why don't you change it?

Ok now back to the main stuff:

some stuff has been reverberating in my head. Its quite remarkable actually how much i tend to dwell on stuff until i lose sleep, weight and concentration on it. Hey on the good side i lose weight. Ha, On my way back to the lower reaches, no longer obese. But sleep is no longer as scarce as before. I sleep much more during school than during holidays. I am so so busy. Just watched the interpreter yesterday and squeezed time to meet some workaholic at PS. The new people in my group are really fun and nice. We get along very well. I like my CG. I hope it stays this way for the next 3 years. At least it won't be too lonely with friends like this.

Anyway on the stuff i dwell upon, 2 things struck me. One is the simple chinese idiom of Zhi4 Tong2 Dao4 He2. How long have i dwelled on it? Well, let's say that its 1 month. Why was i dwelling on it? Well, it seems that the phrase never rang so true as before. I don't know why i didn't realise it that time? Was what i was thinking right or wrong? Is it really right or is it really wrong? Does loyalty and rivalry run so deep that Mr. Hyde cannot take it? That Mr. Hyde has to exert the oldself once again? And what for? Dr. Jekyll, you aren't doing a good job suppressing Mr. Hyde. You must put in more effort into your self-control.

The second was a few days only. And its really very meaningful as it goes something like this. When you are young, your happiness is determined by what you get. When you are old, your happiness is determined by what you give. And i feel really touched by its meaning because it rings so true, now more than ever. When you are in clinics, clerking a patient, what makes you happy? The money the patient gives you or the care and concern that you give him? Can anything in this world ever replace the happiness of a person whose life you saved? Maybe it comes too late to me, maybe i am immature and childish and silly. Maybe i have yet to grow up but this awakening was in the works, slowly but surely. It took a year i guess but somehow i feel that my priorities have shifted. Will a purchase of anything ever match up to the joy of snatching somebody from the claws of death? I don't know yet but i sincerely don't think so. Even if it is burberry or prada.

I need so many things for clinics. I feel woefully unprepared by the lack of a PDA, a clipboard, a jotter, a tape recorder etc. I just hope that i can get them soon. I think that i am being a very lousy group leader. I am qutie guilty cos i was too busy handling the instruments that i forgot to take care of my other group members. The irony of it all, my group is mainly an MGS/ACS group. and i am the only RI boy. Not to bring up old school rivalries but tis is really funny. It's like some stroke of fate and i think God is taking a laugh at me. Maybe it is the will of God but maybe its something else. Maybe its just co-incidence, maybe it is not.


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