I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Just felt that lately i have been going through a rather bad patch. No matter how much i avoid it, it seems to make a round and return. It is true that the world goes round and comes round and it seemingly is unrelenting in its interruption of my pursuit for happiness and peace. Even i have not confided whatever i feel to my close confederates cos i am quite busy and quite lost and a little confused by the change of events. Really don't know what to do now despite advice. Why am i not heeding? Well, cos good medicine is always bitter and its really hard to go through with such remedies. I know that i am bothered by the smallest trivial matters and such events are not doing much to alleviate the situation. The problems do not resolve and more are constantly added onto the ever increasing mess. As much as i would like and rightfully can attribute the blame to others, i can only blame myself for allowing it to happen and not nipping in the bud. I wish that certain things never happened. I wish that i wouldn't be depressed and feeling a sense of loss.


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