我受够了等待你所谓的安排说的未来到底多久才来
总是要来不及才知道我可爱我想依赖而你却都不在
应该开心的地带你给的全是空白一个人假日发呆找不到人陪我看海
我在幸福的门外却一直都进不来你累积给的伤害我是真的很难释怀
终於看开爱回不来而你总是太晚明白最後才把话说开哭著求我留下来
终於看开爱回不来我们面前太多阻碍你的手却放不开宁愿没出息求我别离开
你总是要我乖慢慢计划将来我的眼泪却一直掉下来
过去怎麼交代你该给的信赖被你亲手缓缓推入悬崖
从我脸上的苍白看到记忆慢下来过去甜蜜在倒带只是感觉已经不在
而我对你的期待被你一次次摔坏已经碎成太多块要怎麼拼凑跟重来
终於看开爱回不来而你总是太晚明白最後才把话说开哭著求我留下来
终於看开爱回不来我们面前太多阻碍你的手却放不开宁愿没出息求我别离开

Sometimes against all wishes nothing goes well for you. The days seem unbearably long and the minutes seem like hours. You wish that nothing had happened and the day never existed. But the world does not revolve around yourself and the fact that the punishment seems unbearably torturous makes it all the more a sucky day. Looking back, i don't know what to say. Was it all concincidence or was it all in the making? I'll never know what He up there has in plan for me right?

i haven't reached avaris' ease with expounding situations on his blog in terms of alphabets. Well, i can't hide the circumstances of the sitautions which would cause me sufficient anguish well enough to seem totally objective and totally unoffended. But let me talk about a few things that i have been thinking about since a very very long time ago.

What can you do with people who are unable to accept and even tolerate? Their behaviour is at best more deranged than anything you could find in woodbridge? Maybe you can't really call them mad, but maybe more of a form of illness and disease. A silent one perhaps. But how can one treat the illness other than giving way to others all the time? Maybe i don't have the patience and the magnamity of a candle but more resembling a fuse, but how do you deal with somebody who's fuse is even shorter than yours? And the temper simmers under the surface and is not treated actively or even confronted. As they say, action speaks louder than words and well, i am not lamenting anything. It's just really funny to see it in front of my eyes. And the best part of it all, the cause of resentment is due to my actions which do not involve the other party one bit. It is as though if i were to go to orchard road without calling the person along, the person will make a fuss even though my purpose in going there does not involve the person any bit. ( In case you are wondering, this situation is fictional. I don't wish to talk about the real situation here. ) You know, its really hilarious to have such a situation, you don't know whether to cry or to laugh. I mean, to have such a friend is both a bane and a boon. And sometimes, jealousy whips outs its scary head and makes a scene once in a while.


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