I am now blogging from the NUH ward 43 computer. Its a weird world out there. Instead of going home, i told my parents that i will be staying back to clerk more patients but when i finally reached the stage where i am ready to do it, i decided not to. Why? I don't know. Today has been a bad day for me, academically that is. On the 3rd day of Surgery posting i am supposed to remember all of whatever verbose that norman browse spouts at me. I can't even recall what rectal CA presents with. Not to mention being scolded in the OT for this. After all i am wasting my time in the OT without reading up what. And i don't even know what the hell was going on. Sigh. These few days are not my days. I don't get to scrub up often, opportunities to do various things such as PR and Blood taking are rare. I don't know if i'll ever reach the competency required to become a doctor of sufficient calibre. I know this is self-imposed stress but what can i do if my mind wrecks havoc on the demands placed on me by my mind itself?

Actually more things trouble me but that is all that i can say at the moment. Sigh


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