i shall type a hurried post here in view of the fact that i have a lot of work to do. And also, blogger ate up my 2 previous posts. It is actually a national day post.

some replies are in order.

latte: No worries friends. Thanks so much. Shall try to smile more often despite all the stress i am facing right now.

Firstly i have a few things to say here. Shall try to keep it short and sweet.

One. This years national day song is horrible. Sorry to those who have actually participated in its creation but i think its the worst i ever heard yet. It doesn't stick in my head and it singers are quite lousy. Where are the hey days of Tanya and Kit? I want my Home and Where I Belong back. They are the real classics and the best that there is so far.

Two. national day was a nice time shopping. Bought many things like a new tie and also a new shirt. Also started shopping for birthday and farewell presents for all those friends who are leaving for the states and the UK. Not a bad day i must say. Quite enjoyed myself searching through all the new collections and finding out that Hermes, Louis Vuitton, Prada, Gucci and Bvlgari have so many wonderful ties that are so beautiful that it makes me want to buy them! And i can tell you that i love Prada. It is still the most beautiful brand in the market that has so captured my heart. It is really beautiful. It is the only thing that is making me happy in this dreary life of mine. Especially when it is filled with so much turbulence that i cannot help but wonder why.

I don't know really. Have I ever made the wrong choice? I really don't know. Maybe time will tell but at the moment yes, i have made the wrong choice i feel. It is a really bad feeling about this but i can't say much because although i am relatively cold and no longer affected by it openly, it hurts even to mention a single bit. I have to add that i was made happy by the fireworks that i saw at city hall with my friend's family. It is usually a custom for me to watch fireworks with them. Cos my own family isn't one to enjoy watching fireworks. I don't know what to say. It hurts just to do what i did today. Maybe it is a sign that what goes round comes round cos maybe it is reflected in the results. But i hope that i will both regret and never regret it. I don't want to deal with this anymore. I give up totally. Maybe my patience is low, maybe my tolerance is low, maybe my reserve is low maybe i cannot stnad it anymore. Maybe i have an ego, maybe i have some pride, maybe i would rather walk away than to actually talk and solve it anymore. I have tried to see if it is my fault, i have tried to correct things back to they way they used to be, i have tried to accomodate but i think i was being foolish. I was a fool to think that maybe i could make things better just by being the one to put in all the effort. After all how can one forget that it takes 2 hands to clap. Things are so bad as they are already. What can i do but to whisper in the darkest night my deepest anguish but yes i have decided after rather rapid yet logical contemplation that it is right to do whatever i did. And maybe i will be proved wrong again? I don't think so this time. When anybody is bitten once, he or she will never be so brave as to wish against prevailing conservatism. I am a shy person now. goodbye.


Where I Belong
Music & Lyrics: Tanya Chua

Morning comes around and I
Can't wait to see my sunny island
In its glorious greenery, whether rain or shine, it's still beautiful
Bright lights shine on the streets at night
Guiding me closer to home
To a place where I'll be safe and warm, where I belong

Friends and families by my side
Seeing me through as I grow and learn
Everyday's experience, bitter sweet or sour
They're still wonderful
As they become precious memories
They'll be kept close to my heart
And no matter where I am I will always know, where I belong

Chorus:
Where I belong, where I keep my heart and soul
Where dreams come true for us
Where we walk together hand in hand towards a future so bright
Where I belong, where I keep my heart and soul
Where we're one big family
I want the whole world to know, I want to shout it out loud
That this is where I know I belong


Music & Lyrics: Dick Lee


Whenever I am feeling low
I look around me and I know
There's a place that will stay within me
Wherever I may choose to go
I will always recall the city
Know every street and shore
Sail down the river which brings us life
Winding through my Singapore

Chorus:
This is home truly, where I know I must be
Where my dreams wait for me, where that river always flows
This is home surely, as my senses tell me
This is where I won't be alone, for this is where I know it's home

When there are troubles to go through
We'll find a way to start anew
There is comfort in the knowledge
That home's about its people too
So we'll build our dreams together
Just like we've done before
Just like the river which brings us life
There'll always be Singapore

(Chorus X 2)

For this is where I know it's home


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