I know that there is something seriously wrong with me. Yesterday, I was thinking about it and i realised that i can't accept certain things perhaps. I can let go of things faster than other people but that doesn't mean that other people will play along my rules. Did a great wrong i think and i should apologise for it but what is stopping me from doing so is pride and anger i believe. I may forgive but i don't forget and somethings are not forgotten easily. It might seem miniscule but to me, i might take it as a big aggravation. Maybe I just have a very bad stress reaction. I need to re-read my psychiatry textbooks again to sort somethings out. It has been a wild rollercoaster ride 2005 for me and as much as i enjoyed the heights of exhiliration, I don't want a repeat of the crap I have gone through. I think I have aged a lot in the past year, I am more tired and definitely no longer as cheerful as I once was. I am trtying to find out the root of my problems. Just give me sometime to sort things out.

Kenny, If you are reading this, I apologise. Sorry.


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