Its the third day of CNY. How much more can I take this? It always happens and I cannot stand it anymore. Everytime it happens I am at the brink of a nervous breakdown. How much more alcohol do I need to calm my nerves? I don't know. Is it really right to walk away without a fight?

CHP stress has been making me vulnerable of late. And its not CHP that is driving me to the brink again. Sometimes I am too idealistic, just way too much. Fight? Fight what? Myself? more likely than others. Reading one chapter alone made me feel like slapping myself across the face. I have had enough. Literally enough.

I dunno what to do about this. Maybe It is not meant to be. Maybe I shall just slink off in one corner and not sulk, but I'll take the alley and walk away, never to turn my head back again. Life is such a mystery but its turns deal only cruelty to me and I am already so detached from it already. God, its all in your hands

深夜里
冷冷的空气包围着情绪
窗外的夜景迷乱美丽
想起过去
想起自己

风不停
发丝理不清象我的心
女人的世界该有人安慰
倾听所有快乐和伤悲

让我随着爱而飞
让我为了爱沉醉
我无法再阻挡寂寞的滋味
我好想在温暖的怀中安歇

让我随着爱而飞
让我为了爱沉醉
就算流泪
就算心碎
我也不会后悔
不会后悔


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