first post in a long time. I am happy with the state of my group's project. We did not aim for the first prize as we thought that our project was too big and unprepared but I was pleasantly surprised by the reception we got from the audience. and things were not as bad as expected. I was on a verge of another breakdown yesterday. I have always a very bad case of nerves.

In any case, its not CHP that is bothering me. A lot of other things too. CHP distracts me from all of them. Thankfully so if not I would have lost my mind. But now, slightly elated but it will take sometime before the reality sinks in.

In any case, no thanks to avaris for spelling out my tie. Thank you very much. It was meant to give me good luck. but in any case, you needn't tell everybody that it is from P@#$%. And no, it was not exorbitantly expensive. But anyway, i have another tie that I intend to get from there and its equally nice too. oh well, i have a tie collection... I need to take a look at H)(*&^ too and possibly get something there.

In any case, I don't really want to think anymore. Its not a nice thing but oh well, it does hurt i guess. I dunno how to say it but it sucks. Just pardon me here. Its not a good time for me at all. Sigh. And to think that I got slighted today does not make me feel happy. I set up everything properly just for somebody to screw it all because people don't listen or pay attention.

Sometimes when one is unwanted, one slinks away into the dark alley, with the back hunched and hat in place, never to turn back and cast a gaze upon the scene which he is running away from for the very sight of it makes one sadden and is unable. Favors may still be asked but they are given out of the past and no longer anything of the present. And life would be better for all, if the unwanted does not make his presence felt so that people feel the need to concern themselves with him. Sigh


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